So even the smallest things are making me cry… I mean, today my brother told me pretty much that I’m not allowed at his new apartment, where my boyfriend is about to move with him… He doesn’t even have a real reason. He says it’s because I didn’t approve of his lifestyle choices (in the past). It’s because he parties, smokes, most likely pops pills, cusses, tells nasty jokes and stories, and brings girls home all the time. I haven’t said a word to him about stuff like that in the last year at least. I got drunk once and blacked out (only time ever cuz it mixed wrong with my meds), and I guess I told him all I was holding in for years. He bases his decision on that one day. He won’t even tell me what I said. That was months ago, and I’ve apologized, but he still won’t ever let me live it down…
He has never failed to make me feel bad and treat me so disrespectful for the past few years. I don’t hate him, but I hate the way he treats me and others. He uses people and is the most selfish person I have ever known. In fact, he’s cheated with his friends’ girlfriends multiple times and yet everyone treats him like a freakin’ king! It’s always been like that.. He treats my mom the worst of all, then me secondly, but my mom always takes him back in with open arms.. She Just recently stopped paying all his bills like phone and car insurance. She also just paid off his 6 traffic violations for $600 so he won’t lose his license.
I’m just venting though. Even though he’s such a horrible person at times, I still love him and never judge him or even express my concerns(which he would ignore anyway). Once I suggested he pay mom back for paying his bills and he cussed me out, saying he didn’t owe her anything… Blah blah blah. Brother problems.. This is not helping that I’m depressed…
